6/23/2009
Aloha people! It's been long since my last post I guess, sometimes tumblr is more interesting y'know than this blogger site, but I stick to both of them anyways :D You could check out my tumblr account here www.beingmorbid.tumblr.com, yeah I change the url once in a while :D
So, here's the thing. I am so soaked of waiting, I have always hated waiting for so long. Now I am currently in Changi, Singapore waiting for my flight that boards later, and I am too lazy to do anything else so I decided to post (there's no msn here, fuck it). Gah, this is taking tooo long, my flight boards at two or three and now it's currently one o'clock (okay, I am being a bit unpatient.....).
Speaking of long times, I am going to spend 8 fugly hours inside the plane, thank god I brought my ipod, two novels and my PSP to keep me from getting bored. Mom said that the plane has virtual games too in case my PSP's battery is dead, so thank god for that.
I will be arriving in Brisbane at midnight, that means it's already Nisa's birthday, so I guess I am going to congratulate her earlier. I guess I will be waiting some more for the 2nd of July, the day I get home......
I am already missing a few people here.
6/21/2009
Gigi: I would rather be like that, then be like you.
Alex: Excuse me? What's that supposed to mean?
Gigi: I may dissect each little thing and put myself out there so much but at least that means that I still care. Oh! You've think you won because women are expendable to you. You may not get hurt or make an ass of yourself that way but you don't fall in love that way either. You have not won. You're alone. I may do a lot of stupid shit but I'm still a lot closer to love than you are.
Surrounded by a shield, inside there’s someone welled up.
He doesn’t trust anyone. ANYONE.
He draws you in slowly, making you want to know more, and more….
but then he’ll leave, what an utter disappointment.
He describes his feelings with words, his thoughts with actions,
you think you know him more than you do, but you don’t.
He pursues his anger into hate, his sadness into fake smiles,
He looks tough, but yet he faces breakdowns you could never imagine.
He’s my idol. He’s complex, yet very predictable for me.
6/20/2009
6/18/2009
"I'm sure you heard it all before,
but you never really had a doubt"
6/17/2009
6/15/2009
I mean come oooon, it's just teenage lovelife when we get in love, have fun for a couple of months, break up then cry all about it? PLEASE, it's just embarassing at certain points. Especially those people with razor blades and try to kill their selves when there is something wrong with their lovers.........please.
Well, there's an art in love though, without love there's no effin' way that amazing people will write amazing songs and sing it, no way people like Shakespeare will write amazing dramas and amazing poems. Love is an art as well, come to think of it.
I guess in love we do have fun, have butterflies in our stomaches, voices in our heads, yada yada yadaa....but in the end, there will be a point when it all comes breaking down and coming undone.
What is the definition of love anyway? It's really hard to explain...don't you think?
For me, I always believed in this thing called love, until someone told me that love (us?) won't last forever, and that's right, it didn't. I kinda lost my faith in this love thing. But then again, when I started falling again, I guess there's no harm in trying and hoping that it'll last, it's kinda what every person would feel when they be me :)))) Let's just hope that I wouldn't suffer in emotional breakdowns *again* when it doesn't end up my way.
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This is a picture of us, getting ready for our finishing pose. All the dancers, minus Sacha, Thaya, and Vanya. I am sure going to miss Touviere, and I know I am going to miss this:
- Mocking Mitzy with the others, about how she can balance with two legs.
- Mocking Della's idea to fly into the stage.
- Andra's iris ketimun dance.
- Thaya's eating behaviour, when she asks me if she could eat, and her love of telor balado.
- When everybody goes quite after Sacha talks, LOL.
- Talking in english with Deedee, I'm going bilingual sometimes I guess :]
- Teaching and learning choreos.
- How Andra and Sapi makes everyone practice again, after we're too tired and we started laying down and gossiping.
- Chatting and laughing about anything in particular in my room.
- The sleepovers before shows!
- Telling each other stories, about anything. My personal favorite; I just love listening to Jessie's stories about her boyfriend :}
- Doing our hair and make up before shows.
- When Sacha, Thaya, and Vanya finds the best costumes and we get all amazed.
- Our all-time black ballet dance shoes :p
- Practicing, practicing, and practicing until our body hurts sooo bad.
- Using Mitzy's salon pas and cream to fix our body up.
- The way they mock my non-existent butt. I am sure going to miss this.
- Our time together.
- Anything and everything in particular, I'll sure miss them, I'll sure do.
:))))))))))))))))
I'll miss you so much I sweaaaaar.
AVX is different, it's where all the people blends in, all the people with best personalities, best characters, yes you know....the best of friends.
But I know, this is NOT goodbye, and we could still be pals foreverandeverandeverrrrrrrrrrrrr :D:D:D
Best of luck for the 20th of June,
I hope we could be number one again :)
(see more photos on facebook, I'm too lazy to upload more)
All my love goes out to you guys :]:]:]
"I don't believe that anybody feels the way I do, about you now."
Hey everyone, it's me again.
First thing's first, I just want to apologize about me not posting for this couple of days. I am kinda tired of my blog, and I am kinda tired these days. The last two days had been very tiring, last Saturday was AVX's farewell and last Sunday was the big family reunion thing, and it was very tiring, to be honest. I only joined in because of my mom. And now, I'm kinda tired of mom and dad.
Yes, you know, parents. Parent talk. Gah....it's making me nauseous. It is not like they ban me from doing something or going somewhere but, I wish they'd understand me more. I'm trying to understand them, but why can't they understand me? I wish they wouldn't get into fights, I wish mom would be the typical housewife that spends more time with me, I wish dad isn't such a robot.....I don't know. It's really complicated lately, well it's not lately I guess, it is complicated :/
When it comes to complications like this, only some people understand. Well, I'm not that open to people, but here's something you might want to know: I am tired. I need a getaway, fast fast fast.
I am tired of cries, and hiding them away, just to not show people how I really do feel inside. Sorry for being emo people, but it's true :):):)
****Note: I know, this must be like the worst post ever, sorry for the incorrect grammar and punctuations, and sorry for the wrong choice of words. Sorry for everything.